Do you ever have something that makes you look at life totally different. So much so that it makes you want to change your life drastically.
This past weekend, my beloved dog of 7 years passed away. He went peacefully in his sleep and I am greateful that he passed in a place where he knew he was safe and loved. This dog deserved that. He was with me in many transations in my life and now this transation is making the most impact on me.
Not having my beloved pet with me is very hard. My heart has actually broke and it is going to take a long time to fix it. At this point, I am not sure if I can ever have another dog again simply because I am not sure if I can ever love another animal like I loved him. He adored me and I adored him. Not only did I take care of him, but he in many ways took care of me. He was a huge part of my life and now that space is very void.
I want to be the person that my dog saw me as. I want to live up to that, not only for me but also for him. I want his memory to mold me into the person that he saw inside of me. Some think I am a "good person" but I want to be better than that. Maybe I need to show the compassion towards people that I showed towards him.
Seven years was a short life for this breed of dog. He was suppose to live twice his age, but I truly feel that he lived a complete life and possibly had more fun, love, compassion than a dog twice his age. At least that is what I hope.
He will be greatly missed and will forever be in my heart.
And for those of you that think why are you feeling this way, it was only a dog. I truly feel sorry for you simply because you have never been able to feel the unconditional love that an animal can hold for you. It is intense and humbling.
Animals never realize that they are suppose to live as long as you. I only hope I can see him on the other side when everything is done with my journey in life. Afterall, what is heaven without the animals we love??
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So this is the first time I've visited your blog and several of your posts have me hooked in wanting to read more. However, this one in particular post caught my eye because I know EXACTLY where you are coming from and how you feel. About 2-3 years ago I put down my childhood dog. I had her for 18 years! It was by far the hardest thing I ever had to do.
I don't care what people say, the connection you have with a pet runs very deep and the pain that comes with losing that best friend and family member is very real! Honestly, I cried harder when I had to put my dog down then at my Grandmother's funeral.
It’s difficult for me to read this entire post without getting choked up, so forgive me if I can only manage to skim thru it right now. Not sure if anything I say will help, but just a word of advice...give yourself plenty of time to grieve and grieve as much as needed. There is no timeline on healing and everyone grieves differently. I’m sure in the future you’ll want to get another dog, but I suggest you wait awhile until your heart isn’t hurting so badly and you are fully prepared to open yourself up to loving another four-legged friend.
My deepest sympathies to you and don’t hesitate to e-mail me if you need an ear to listen.
- David
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